CD32: Doing Crazy Shit While I Wait For AF

I was riding the couch with J tonight, watching something mindless on Channel 11 and they break to what’s on tomorrow night…and it’s none other than Dr. Moustache on a show about people having babies via IVF. Bleh. We can’t escape him even in the privacy of our own living room. It was deja vu [...]

Posted on | October 2, 2006

CD29: 10DP3.5DTTequila Anyone?

** Warning: Extensive use of the word “fuck” today. First the better news of the day: CD3 FSH 9.2E2 72 Both could be better but since I’ll be 42 in two months, they’re not that bad. Okay, now for the totally fucked up news of the day: Beta #1: 2.48Beta #2: Less than 2.0 I [...]

Posted on | September 29, 2006

CD28: 9DP3.5DTFRED-less Today

After yesterday’s dismal beta I couldn’t get myself to POAS today. 2.48 means that nothing is going to show up today: why bother wasting a perfectly good FRED? So instead of moping about at home, focusing on every cramp that came my way, I made my way to the Palace of the Purple People Eaters [...]

Posted on | September 28, 2006

It’s Worse Than I Thought

The results didn’t come in until 6:30PM if you can imagine. Repeated phone calls and finally my fax machine hummed to life and delivered the news. HCG: 2.48iu Q: Can a beta be any lower? A: Yes. My first IVF beta was 2.0. (sobs) I will do my second beta on Friday, the day I [...]

Posted on | September 28, 2006

CD27: 8DP3.5DTFRED #6

Bet you’re wondering how I went from FRED#4 to FRED#6 without doing the one in between? Well it’s like this. Yesterday when I went to my OB’s office to pick up a beta labslip, I chatted up her lab assistant, aked her how sensitive her in office POAS were. She checked. 20iu sensitive. Better than [...]

Posted on | September 27, 2006

CD26: 7DP3.5DTFRED #4

And it gets worse. Today’s HPT showed absolutely nothing. Not even the faintest of lines. I guess this beta party is over. Kaput. Really, there’s no need to go to my OB’s office for a serum beta today. If I had a beta of 50 this coming Friday, and let’s be honest, an initial beta [...]

Posted on | September 26, 2006

CD25: 6DP3.5DTFRED #3

Depression. Today’s HPT was lighter than yesterday’s. It’s just a tiny bit different. It might just be a variation in the tests themselves…or maybe the oil slick in my urine from the progesterone suppositories didn’t make for a good test today. Or maybe the HCG trigger on the way out…and the embryo hasn’t made it’s [...]

Posted on | September 26, 2006

And Rip Went My Heart

Found this link on Beth’s Blog. All it said on Beth’s blog was that it was a multimedia presentation on infertility. I had tears running down my cheeks before it was over. My god. I feel that pain! I live that pain! What a poignant message to the fertile.

Posted on | September 24, 2006

CD24: 5DP3.5DTFRED #2

10:23AM: After POAS this morning, rather than rush back to the warmth of our bed, I hovered in the bathroom in my furry beige robe to witness whether anything remarkable would materialize on the white background. After about 5 minutes the very very pale pink line appeared once again. I held it next to yesterday’s [...]

Posted on | September 24, 2006

CD23: 4DP3.5DTFRED #1

My bladder went off before 8:00AM this morning, but I lingered in bed til 8:10AM trying to avoid the inevitable POAS that I was destined for this morning. 8:10AM: I give up and dash to the bathroom. Bladder wasn’t as full as I had thought. Hmmm. Just enough to get the POAS to work with [...]

Posted on | September 23, 2006 keep looking »